god bless the philippines

hungover.

feeling i have not felt in quite a while.. well... not recently. i would like to keel over and die. i went to ricks last nite.. in the the toyota previa minivan... driving ron and 'aj' (post date interruption).. i felt like that mom who makes you all embarassed cuz she tries to help you out tries to be cool and 'hang out'.. at any rate.. i was driving them to the bar... be home by midnight okay ron?!...

probably not a good start to the night.. ouch, i a

alright, i guess the blog was a little unsuccessful today... done with class now :)

So in all this fret to finish my art project before angell hall closed last nite.. and post accepting the fact that my project would not be done for monday because of the same thing.. it occurs to me.. at 1am.. as i have about given up on "redeeming myself" in class on tuesday... it occurs to me that i can go to the art school at any time of the nite and do my work. what a jackass. at least i have it for class today :) i told you tho.. monday. not a good day.

i realize that this "new blog" business is actually a formatting diff btwn macs and pc's.... wait that doesn't really make sense... well whatever i don't care.

monday monday monday// mondays are the worst. i would work on fri and sat to get rid of mondays.. they are just cursed. particularly this one.. it was like one thing after another.. starting right at 1am last night (the beginning of monday). but lets not divulge into all that. it's boring and i get pissed off thinking about it. but lets just say that i got scared shitless... i got soaked.. im suddenly on the verge of failing computers (confrontation and all).. and i was aLmost out an infinite amount of money and the trust of a loving mother.

i guess i am pretty cynical these days... but rightfully so. how would you feel after dropping 70 bones in three days for parking tickets... and 20 of that just cuz you woke up 20 mins later than you shoulda. my criminology class is not helping me get out of the cynycism either. i decided there is no solution to crime and it will always happens no matter what changes there are to the criminal justice system. i guess there must be some way to make it better but as i see it right now.. nothings gonna change. and for that reason.. i want out of my crim class. OUT. everyday... another reason to disbelieve the CJS (crim justice system.. legal jargon.. how cool am i [with a hint of sarcasm])

mannnnn tho. just when i thought i was facing brighter days.. ahh oh well. sorry i keep bitching.. i am in not a good mood and i don't want to do any of the work that i must finish asap. speaking of which.. i fEEEl like that guy in office space right now.. well not quite but i just can't deal these days. i sound like a complete nutcase right now huh... well whatever..

hmm anyways. i better get going.. one final thing.. should i get my wisdom teeth pulled out? i guess no one ever wAnts to get em pulled out if they don't have to.. but i really don't know if i believe my ortho when he says i might have room for them.. i mean if the majority of the people i kno got em pulled and i am on the smaller side from most of them.. wouldn't that mean there is no room for my teeth?

one other thing.. the guys at irwins decided there were only three girls worthy of being on u of m's top five girls list. and apparenty this is based solely on looks.. no f-ing way im thinking.. guys.. girls.. defend yourselves.... anybody out there?? do i have friends these days?

my summer has been pretty much waste.. im broke im failing.. im still finishing my medschool shiiit. i feel like i shoulda gone to the bio station but oh well. queen of wrong decisions regrets another one. what else is new. hey im gonna post a blog that i started writing a long time ago.. it'll put a brighter spin to my post-mortem blog. i cant rememeber why i didn't post but i emailed it to myself.. i'll go get it..

okay here it is.. from july 8th.. thEre's my perky little self. no alterations nothing.. this is me on july 8th. thirteen days later im going to the mental institution. i think i see Blue.. he's gloooorious!

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i'm visiting suj and tyra in DC for the last five hours that i'm in baltimore
and you know what I was doing.. dancing.. i have never been to DC in my life
and what am i doing.. not checking the city.. the white house?.. no.. dancing.
the thing i do day after day at u of m. the stuff that makes me berserk at
least once a month at least 8 months out of the year. hmm... dancing. e.. they
let me try out! and i about flipped. first time dancing in oh 5 months, i was
pretty nervous. and even worse i did not have clothes or shoes.. so i'm
strutting in my sorority-girl pants and a black tank and some white 80's
tennies from the lost and found.. no socks mind u.. this look was not helping
me.. but no matter. just kept telling myself that it didn't matter.. i'm not
really trying out..

and what about this guy who was teaching the dance.. hi hot.

so the only time people talk to me on IM is the time when i'm away from the comp.. that's okay.. since there's no one to talk to i'll talk to my blog... aka myself :(

i am in baltimore for the fourth of july.. playing on the new powerbook (whooppeee) at the moment.. fourth of july (aka happy new year!) was fun but it didn't feel like the fourth. i didn't even see any fireworks.. it's so good to see my family tho.. my entire five siblings and two parents are here with me and it's awesome.. we had family shots... they tasted like sluts but they were something else... so did jaeger and malibu btw (last nite's fam shot).. but yeah.. i was kind of disappointed last nite b/c none of the kids came out.... i'm at this yearly convention thing that my parents and their college friends hold every year... and all the parents bring their kids.. it's fun. last nnnite tho i was sitting at this bar with all these randoms and i'm like wtf?! i was sooo tired too cuz i didn't sleep the nite before.. so that added to the lame sentiment.. tonite was so fun tho. we were dancing [HIPHoP] and everyone was pretty toasted.. im sad tho cuz i lost my flashing american flag (soo cool)...but it's really nice having a family that gets along so well.. so many people have siblings who are oppposites etc.. we're all kind of the same and i i love that.

steve kang online! OOkay. ill be back later..

red bull and vodka... ewwww. i can still taste it..

kay read this poem and tell me what you think of it.. how it makes you feel.. (im making a book for computers and im illustrating it. ) nevermind i'm tired as hell and i know no one reads this anyways. im gonna go. goodnite.

i don't know if this will publish.. ignorant to the "new blogger"

i'd like to know what this friendster bidness is.. i am getting these emails but i don't hear good things about it.. are you guys trying to storm me with chain letters and the like.

summer class is a bitch.. i want to drop my classes and it's been 2 days. actually the one i'm in right now is not bad.. except for the fact that it's at 9am M thru Thurs. criminology could be fun.. but i'm not a fan of 80pp of reading every nite.. frederique's biggest pet peeve is when people dont do the readings.. that's going well for me already

i hoe (haha HO.. that was meant to be hope) steve kang has lunch with me today.. i'm already starving and it is 930.. that sucks

hmm.. so i was truly not gonna come to class yesterday cuz i thought i was gonna be late.. and i hATe being late to class.. id almost rather not come.. but yeah this guy seemed like a real stickler about starting promptly so i thought he would totally call me out yest.. 915.. haha we didnt start til past 930.. and here i am again.. and it's 930//

maybe i'll blog every day..