god bless the philippines

lets talk about how all the things that i want and love have suddenly become so clear to me. and how with that all the things that i hate and loathe have become so blaringly (if thats a word) apparent as well. we can talk about how lucky i feel to have gotten where i am (being the slacker and the dumbass that i have been). and we can talk about how much i dont want to go where they have taken me. lets talk about how wrong i have been about so many things (and i mean completely blindsided wrong), how much ive cared about things that doNT MATTER (and they told me so many times didnt they). should i feel bad for the time ive wasted ("wasted?").. for the things ive done.. for the choices ive made? no. because you know what? i have an exam in 8 hours and i need to cram the shit out of this guy. (because these things matter remember?)

yeah. i gave up. sue me.